I knew, even as I raised the camera, that it was the last time I’d see your face.
It'd be the last time I would hug you. The last time I'd get to be here in your house. I know the photos I made today would be the only ones I'd have of us.
And that felt so important I couldn't miss it. As a documentarian I need this, these photos of when he meet his great grandchildren.
 
 
Covid.
My Papaw Jim's house and funeral that was later to come.
Oklahoma Based Candid Photographer because real life doesn't wait for you to be ready.
Florence, MS
 
 
Taken in June 2019
I didn't see you often. Up until this visit it had been many many years actually. You still look the same to me. I recall your same perfect smile, wide eyes, and a somewhat uncomfortable around kids vibe. You weren't the papaw I knew to run and hug and honestly I was afraid to visit alone out of fear you wouldn't know me at all. I needed my dad with me; your son.
We received a call that you weren't doing great and we should come. You're holding Braddock here and we were stationed in Georgia. Dad came in from Oklahoma and being a stay at home momma allowed the boys and I to drive over for the meetup too.
You were doing much better than we expected, but knowing it would likely be my last visit with you I turned into the camera to savory the feelings and memories of the day. I was surprised to find a bright orange wall with photos surrounding your favorite chair.
 
Was it covid?
May 2020
It was a really hard trip to make. Watching my dad. The strongest man I know going through something so painful. I couldn't yet begin to understand the loss he was feeling. The grief crept in and out like ocean waves. I stood back and stood present as we drove the streets of MS talking memories. Dad was asked to give the message at the service. There wasn't very many that came, but the few that were there knew the risk of covid was a serious one. This year we were living in a plague. Something that we'd had to consider taking the risk ourselves to fly in. Myself, I flew in from Joint Base Lewis McCord in Washington. While it was important I didn't risk taking the kids with me on this one.
This is the last image I'll have with Papaw Jim.
 
How can I help you? What photo can I make for you to treasure?
If you have love ones that you don't see that often, just take the photo. Professionally or not. Awkward or not. You wont regret it.